So, this is all new to me. I've never really considered myself an "open book." Carpe diem, right? I have a doctors appt in the am to discuss a weight loss plan. I have friends who've had great success with this diet and I've heard my share of skepticism from others. I'm debating not revealing "my diet" until I have some proven success (also, my way to drag you in!). Every diet works differently with each person. So how about a little history?!?!
My weight has always been a bone of contention with me. I don't believe that I was ever the "chubby" girl but, certain people made sure to let me know I wasn't "skinny." I remember being embarassed when my dress for Homecoming, my freshman year of hs, was a 12 when my mom was approx a size 6 or so and always a "tiny thing." {Granted, my mom is 5'2" and my father 6'4". I clearly have my father's genes at 5'9.5"!!} Of course, I look at that picture now and wonder what I was worried about? I'd love to be a size 12!
Few things will always be with me, some may consider it scarring of my emotions, and maybe it is! When I was about 10 or 12 I remember my maternal grandmother informing me I had a double chin. I was not fat, by any means, at either of those ages. Another memory I have that brings me great laughter is with both my grandmothers. I was preparing for my hs graduation and preparing 2 small frozen pizzas for lunch. My maternal gma made sure to let me know it wasn't healthy and that I was fat. My paternal gma chimed right in. I believe her words to my mat. gma were, "It's none of your damn business so shut up." It speaks volumes to the character of both women!
Fast forward 15yrs and I'm still struggling with my addiction to processed quick, frozen food, especially pizza. The most successful weight loss I've had in those 15 yrs was when I did WW in 2000-2001. I lost approx 75lbs, maybe more. Of course, I then met my husband and the comfortable love and over eating started to take over, that seems to occur in most relationships. The other great weight loss I've experienced was during pregnancy. I lost approx 25-30lb during my first daughters pregnancy, not to mention the added weight loss that delivery brings, only to gain it all back within 6mo-1yr post delivery. I had twins in April 2010 and lost 35lbs during the first 5mos, to gain it back the last few months. I esentially gained nothing during my pregnancy with the twins, in fact, I lost 5lbs instead. After delivery, I was thrilled with the scale for about 6mos. Then the weight starts slamming itself back on. In the past few months I've struggled to lose 10lbs. I am also hypothyroid which just makes it even harder to lose weight.
I went and purchased new summer crops this past weekend and was delighted to see that I needed a smaller size. This has created a fire in me. I want to be 2 sizes smaller....at least! Not a huge goal, a doable one. So, here goes me laying it all there.
Sep 1995, 17yrs, start of senior year 180lbs size, not sure
June 1996, 17yrs, graduation 220lbs size 18
Oct 2000, 22yrs 295ish lbs (ended 3yr 1st serious relationship)
May 2001, 22yrs 215lbs (began dating husband) size 18
Oct 2004, 26yrs wedding day 270lbs size 24
Jan 2007, 28yrs 317.4lbs size 28-30
May 2011, 32yrs 275ish lbs size 24
So, there you go. Balls to the wall out there. Here I am, take it or leave it. My husband and I are planning to do the same diet and start it together. I hope to document our journey and do it well! If anything, I hope this blog will help others to feel comfortable in their own skin. I believe women are beautiful, no matter their size. But, maybe that's something a "fat chick" says!!!
~M
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